I let fear control me for three years


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Issue #019

I let fear control me for three years

I once drove around with expired tags for three years.

I kept telling myself it was going to be this huge hassle. I’d need to find the right paperwork, wait in long lines, maybe even deal with a fine or some sort of legal trouble. I imagined the worst-case scenario so vividly, it convinced me to keep putting it off.

Then one day, I finally did it.

It took five minutes.

I walked in, filled out a form, paid a small fee, and walked out with new tags. That was it.

I couldn’t believe how easy it was, and how long I had let fear and overthinking keep me from doing something so simple.

You already know what to do. So why aren’t you doing it?

It’s one of the most frustrating things about being a Five.

You read the books. You watch the videos. You write out the plan.

And then… nothing.

No matter how much insight you gain, no matter how clear the next step is, you can’t seem to take it.

You know what’s good for you. You know what would help you grow. You even want to do it.

But something stops you, and that gap between knowing and doing can feel like a chasm.

Let’s talk about what’s really going on.

It’s not a knowledge problem, it’s an emotional one

As Fives, our default strategy is to learn more. When we feel stuck, we think the solution must be more information.

But that’s rarely the real issue.

In fact, it’s often the opposite. The more we learn, the more pressure we feel to do it “right.” And the more pressure we feel, the more emotionally overwhelming the task becomes.

Underneath all that knowing is a quieter truth: we’re afraid.

Afraid to fail.
Afraid to be seen struggling.
Afraid of what it will mean if we try and it still doesn’t work.

So we retreat back into our heads, where it feels safer. No risk, no rejection, no uncertainty.

But also no movement.

Why this keeps happening

Here are some common emotional patterns Fives face when we can’t seem to act, even when we want to:

  • Fear of inadequacy: What if I try and it proves I’m not good enough?
  • Over-identification with intellect: If I rely on action instead of understanding, who even am I?
  • Perfectionism disguised as preparation: I can’t start until I know everything.
  • Emotional avoidance: Taking action often means feeling things I don’t want to feel.
  • Attachment to control: Action introduces variables I can’t predict or manage.

All of these are emotional blocks, not intellectual ones.

And until we engage with the emotional edge underneath our inaction, no amount of thinking will move us forward.

Try this: The Emotional Edge Practice

This isn’t about pushing through or forcing yourself to act. It’s about getting curious about what’s really going on under the surface.

Here’s how it works:

Step 1: Pick one thing you’ve been putting off.

Something you know would be good for you-but keep avoiding. Not something massive. Just something real.

Step 2: Sit with it, gently.

Find a quiet moment and think about taking that action. Now pause. What emotions come up in your body? Where do you feel tension? What sensations arise?

Step 3: Name the emotional edge

Ask yourself:

  • What am I afraid might happen?
  • What part of me is trying to protect me from this?
  • What am I making this action mean about me?

Step 4: Take a small, compassionate step anyway

Not to prove anything.
Not to “get over it.”
But to show that part of you it’s safe to move forward, even if it’s uncomfortable.

You’re not trying to bulldoze your fear. You’re just learning how to walk with it.

One small step changes everything

The more you practice engaging your emotional edge instead of avoiding it, the more you build trust in yourself—not just as a thinker, but as a doer.

Because the truth is, you don’t need more information. You need more self-trust. And that only grows through small, lived experiences.

You’re not broken.
You already know enough.
You’re just learning how to move forward with your whole self, not just your mind.

Josiah Goff

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