This is newsletter #52.
One year of hitting “send” every single week.
Part of me wants to make this one a masterpiece. Part of me wants to pretend it’s not a big deal. Very on brand.
But honestly, I feel proud... and a little exposed.
See, I thought I was just writing a newsletter, but actually I was training my system to be seen.
Today we’re talking about what I learned from writing in public every week as a Five, and why it matters if you’re trying to move from feeling stuck to gaining momentum.
Six rules I learned from a year of "shipping" it
1) Consistency builds identity faster than insight
For most of my life, I’ve lived by a quiet belief:
Once I understand it, I’ll do it.
This year taught me something different. Understanding didn’t create momentum. Repetition did.
When you show up on schedule, you stop negotiating with your identity. You stop asking, “Am I the kind of person who does this?” Because you already did it. Again.
New rule: I become the kind of person who does things by doing things. On schedule.
2) Shipping is nervous system training
I used to treat “making it better” like a moral obligation.
If I could just refine it more, it would feel safer to share. But, safety rarely arrived first. It usually showed up after I shipped.
Every send was a tiny exposure rep.
Not just for sharing ideas, but for being perceived.
For Fives, that’s not a branding challenge. That’s a body challenge.
New rule: shipping is training for the part of me that hates feeling exposed.
3) Connection costs less energy than anticipation
I always assumed interaction is what drains me.
But the longer I do this, the more I notice something weird: the dread before hitting "send" costs more than the sending itself.
The anticipation is expensive.
The imaginary conversations. The mental rehearsals. The “what if they think…” simulations.
Most of the time, the actual connection is fine. Sometimes it’s even energizing.
New rule: stop paying interest on a future that hasn’t happened.
4) Depth wins, but simplicity converts
If you’ve been here a while, you know I love nuance.
I want to include every important detail, every caveat, every angle. Because in my head, completeness equals competance.
But the emails that resonated most with y'all this year were usually the simplest ones.
Not shallow, just clear.
They didn’t try to say everything. They tried to say one true thing cleanly.
New rule: I’m allowed to be useful before I’m comprehensive.
5) I didn’t run out of ideas, I ran out of permission
There were weeks I told myself, “I don’t have anything to write.”
That wasn’t true.
I had ideas. I had drafts. I had notes. I had opinions.
What I didn’t have was permission.
Permission to be specific. Permission to make a claim. Permission to take up space without building a legal defense around every sentence.
As a Five, you know this move.
You wait until it feels undeniable. You wait until you can defend it. You wait until you can explain it perfectly.
New rule: I can rarely say it perfectly, but I can always say it honestly.
6) The real skill is finishing
Starting has never been my problem.
Fives start things constantly, most of them in our heads.
We open tabs.
We sketch plans.
We map systems.
We think in futures.
The harder skill is closure.
Finishing is what builds trust. Not trust in your intelligence, but trust in you. That's what really happens when you keep showing up.
New rule: finish small things on purpose. Let completion be a practice.
If you want to try something..
Here's your experiment this week.
I’m calling this the 52-minute ship sprint.
Set a timer for 52 minutes. Pick one thing you’ve been circling. Something small is fine:
- a draft you haven’t written
- a rough plan you keep “improving”
- a message you’ve been overthinking
- a tiny creative thing you keep postponing
For 52 minutes, your only job is to finish a small version.
Rules:
- No research
- No expanding the scope
- No “one more tweak” loops
When the timer ends, ship it.
Send it. Publish it. Share it. Or hand it to one real person.
Then ask yourself one question:
Right before you shipped, what did your body feel like?
That sensation is your edge. Training happens there.
One year in
A year of writing in public didn’t just give me content.
It gave me evidence.
Evidence that I can show up, finish, and survive being seen.
And if you’re a Five who’s been waiting to feel ready, I hope you'll borrow this idea:
Ready usually comes after the rep, not before it.
See you next week 👋🏻